Today dalton and I went for a run, then we went to the lake with his friends and had a great time. Keagen made me realize maybe we aren’t into it enough. Yeah we make out&&hold hands and do all of that but maybe it’s not spontaneous enough. So I just went up and kissed him when he was changing, and it was actually thrilling
I don’t like disappointing people. I don’t like letting people get to know everything about me. I don’t want to have someone else worry about me. I don’t want to be vulnerable. I think the small&&cute things will stop. I don’t want him to stop trying. I want to keep my options open. I don’t like knowing that it’ll eventually end. It’s setting myself up for failure&that’s why I don’t like relationships for myself. They terrify me, because it would mean I would have to let someone else in on my crazy life. I mean my best friends are gay and suicidal. But I really still like Colby, am I crazy?
Today Dalton&&I went to the baseball game together, for the most part people didn’t really ask questions. I think people knew that we were kinda talking&I don’t really know how I feel about that. And then we left early hand in hand,so we could go eat, and that’s when people started asking questions. I like that he wanted to show me off, but we both know we don’t want the relationship so it puts me in a weird spot
Last night I spent the night at Dalton’s house&&it was great. We had dinner, then we baked some brownies and made a mess. We talked about a lot of stuff. Then Colby called and Dalton really stepped up, then we went to sleep. We just slept, I was in his arms and it was a perfect night. In the morning I made him breakfast and we just cuddled. I wanted to stay there forever, being with him made me forget all about the accident I was in with Stacy, the crappy day I had. And tomorrow he’s taking me to colonial in the morning. It’ll be really boring I think, but I like his friends so it’ll be worth it
“Friends are shady people” You’re the one who cheated, so don’t act like it was anybody else’s fault but yours. Keep your legs&&mouth shut and we wouldn’t have this problem would we? So go fuck yourself
